Saturday, July 31, 2010

a friggin night owl, not so much a pro yet, but a night owl no less...

so in the words of blair from youtube (juicystar07), im officially a night owl...like iwouldnt consider myself a first time night owl, but i'm not a pro...b/c honestly i've been up this late before, but it's only happened a few times, sporadically of course ;)

so i'm wide awake, and ihave no friggin clue why. like itried sleeping the normal way ido, but it didnt work, ijust kept sneezing. and my dog is in my bed with me, and shes getting scared by it, cuz its sudden...but then itried turning on music, but that didnt work either..and then itried flipping over and sleeping upside down, but that didnt work...so istarted doing different things...ikeep a physical (like tangible) journal aside from this blog, so iwrote an entry in there...and then iwrote a little bit more in this book that has a story that i've been writing since iwas a freshman...and now i'm writing this

legit, idk why i'm awake...so far this summer, i've never been up past 3....ok legit ijust had to pretend to be asleep b/c my mom came upstairs...but shes not anywhere near my room ithink, so ican keep typing..iliterally was about to write "tryping"...wow imisspell so many words...

i'm gonna sleep so late now, its pathetic...like last night iwent to sleep close to 4, and islept for nearly TWELVE HOURS!!!! like wtf, thats not really good for me, especially since my mom got super pissed at me when itold her what time iwoke up..but whatever...IRREGARDLESS!!!

anyways, i'm gonna try and get some sleep, because ineed sleep, and i'm tired, but ijust can't seem to fall asleep...so i'll write back soon!!!

xoxo, R♥

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

dance withdrawal.... :(

ok, hi everyone!!!

its been a little bit since my last post. from end of school, to finals to family stuff, my summer has started off ok..i've just been working, cuz irecently got a job at a dunkin/baskin in my area...but istill manage to hang with people and do my normal teenage stuffff...

ok, so iwas hanging out today, and iwas like damn, imiss the time ispent in my old dance studio..when iwas 4 1/2, iwent to my first dance class, and i've been doing it ever since..the classes were run by an 80year old woman (miss irene) and her 40something assistant teacher (miss dee)..iremember all my family and friends of family would come to my recitals, and for 7 years, iwon free lessons for a year, because my mom sold the most tickets, and thats the way it was for most of my childhood. it first started out as every saturday, and then iwas moved to the friday night class..and thats the way it was for a while...

so when iwas well into my 7th year of dance, iwas getting ready to achieve another goal, recieving my blackbelt. it required me to go to camp, but camp coincided with the weekend of my dance recital :/ ihad a decision to make: camp? or recital?

so ieventually decided to go to camp. icontinued taking dance classes every friday for the next couple of weeks. however, sometime during that period, ihad an epiphany..it was then that istopped going. istopped because iknew that iwouldnt be performing in the recital, so why should igo through with lessons...so since then, inever went back to miss irene or miss dee..last summer istopped by the house one day, and she wants me to come back, but iknow in my heart, ican never go back..that was the foundation of my dance ability, but icant go back there, because iwont get the training iwant, iwant to do more advanced stuff, and miss irene is too traditional, and most of her dances are very babyish

so my dance career went on hiatus for about a year and a half..that is, until my freshman year of high school. the high school iattend has a dance program, and i've been in that program for the past 3 years. dance is something that inever want to stop doing, because its been a part of my life for as long as ican remember :)

well thats my little post for now, byeee :)<3